June was a month of decisions. I decided to go back to work. It was a tug-of-war decision in my heart and mind. In my heart where my emotions lie, it was like a Jerry Springer-style episode entitled, "Working Mothers and the Children they Abandon vs. Stay at Home Mothers and the Children they Adore." Catchy, huh? Ultimately, it was my rational thinking that won out encouraging me that sometimes the best and most loving act for my family is to leave them for at least a few hours a day to exercise my gifts and talents in service to others.
Off to find a job! Lo and behold I found what was essentially my old job! A job I loved and missed. I jumped at the opportunity to pick up where I had left off. I quickly applied for it. The morning of my interview, I sat down with my coffee to read my daily devotion and what was it entitled, "Opportunity of Suffering". This was not a good sign. It should have been about God's goodness or his ever-presence, but not suffering. Later that day, I interviewed then waited for a response. The response I received was not what I wanted to hear, but what I needed. I was offered a position, but not the one I interviewed for. This time I listened to my heart which knew the right thing to do was politefully refuse. The position offered was not the correct use of my gifts and talents. It would just be a job.
As I await the position that is the right fit, I'm practicing patience. The Bible says patience is a fruit of the Spirit among Christians (Galatians 5:22).
Like a long distance runner, it is cultivated through endurance of our struggles. By responding with patience in these struggles, we grow our faith in Christ's power and purpose in our life. Always leaning on God, waiting, allowing him to create the perfect environment and circumstances for our lives. In our waiting, with enduring patience, we say to God, "I trust you to do as you see fit."
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